Its almost 1 o clock in the morning .Even Sikander our dearly dog and guardian at NCST is feeling it as relaxation time.Most of lights are off and i as usual as an owl roaming around in NCST remembring the happiest period my life .Most often in cricket after a tiring final day a batsman often thinks of the sweetest strokes he played these strokes keep him going to play ,to commit himself ,to live to his fullest and to enjoy his life after a tiresome day ....Today i m having no different feeling today i m seeing the most precioous strokes in my innings at NCST passing in front of my eyes as i walk through the empty corridors .
My previous blogs can easily force you think me as the most critic person of NCST perhaps most outrageous towards the things going on here.Even few hours back i was thinking to write the final signing blog ,yet another useless blog from me making no sense But now i m feeling so much constrains to write this blog ...cant help my english ...plz forgive me after all i too have emotions and this time around i cant control them.While wrting this blog i remember the most treasurable moments in my life. moments which are so simple yet cannot be forgotten.I remember the early morning getting up and rushing for breakfast...i m having illusions of bright morning and a green tila....i remember myself rushing to room after a horrible MFCS paper ...Discussing with everyone the answers after CNET quiz.I am even watching myself sitting in lawn telling my dear friend DLL ,......Prashant as always accompanying me to INFY...Searching a seat in lab after my PC crashed....The eve of 31st december before the party began...the most distant memory of nehil standing wid another friend atNCST enterance waiting for rain to stop and to reach canteen for tea.I remember the queue for breakfast ...the tension before a MGPA ..and the pain of Prashant departing.The faces after an unsuccessful placement inteview..the joy on someone's birthday ...............i see the happiness on faces when even one gets placed in an interview ............. Sorry guys no sensible things to say this time ,today i cant think anything else,Its NCST all over me tonight
Meanwhile i came here to fulfill my desires for programming and NCST has completely fulfilled it.This time around i even cleared one MGPT ..what a feeling.Today One of my friend left NCST and by next week NCST will be empty ..its haunting me already.I will be seperated from my beloved friends one by one ....finally will have to leave alone ,after such an affectionate one year .................cant even imagine myself at such position , its just like leaving my family ......Today i m placed in a decent company with average knowledge of programming.I never say by any means that i am great achiever ,but whatever i have become right now whatever i know i owe most of it to NCST.tonight i feel that whatever i say whatever i do or write NCST has become my inevitable part.It is the same NCST that i had criticized earlier but still i feel proud to be an NCSTian .Ultimately i realize that this is my second home ,........this is where i belong .......this is NCST (my home).
Monday, July 30, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
NCST reincarted .
Hi guys ,
Last few weeks there has been a dismay in my writing regarding NCST.Most of the views were due to the guys over here(the pathetic attitude guys).I was thinking i had started hating this place ,Even was quite sure about it.But yesterday something caused me to think what actually was i hating .
Yesterday few friends of mine were discussing about the placements in NCST.Its almost common these days .All was going well when someone raised an issue that instead of course criteria companies should come on basis of previous degrees acquired.Hell........these morons are the primary source of my negative energy .These dumb morons have acquired their marks in some university where they stand nowhere amongst toppers(Forget the university level),and then they feel that they are superior to guys over here who have less marks but have skills way ahead than most of software proffesionals in the industry .Well i m a BE graduate but even i feel the dignty of this course and in any condition i refer this place or course a milestone in my life .Even i can say this place has given me a sense of meaning to my life as a programmer. The pathetic morons as i mentioned earlier stand nowhere in front of anyone who gives wholeheart to do this project or course over here in NCST .These A$0 neither have the capability nor the thinking to complete the course and think themselves to be master minds .I feel like saying too much about these dumbasses but i wont like to spend my valuable blog space for those morons .So i will summarize them in only one word BULLSHIT.
Well enough of the morons lets speak about what i feel now after all the stuff.I feel that the same NCST that was within me is back.I feel the passion of NCST ian in me still lives and once again i feel NCST Reincarnated in me......
Last few weeks there has been a dismay in my writing regarding NCST.Most of the views were due to the guys over here(the pathetic attitude guys).I was thinking i had started hating this place ,Even was quite sure about it.But yesterday something caused me to think what actually was i hating .
Yesterday few friends of mine were discussing about the placements in NCST.Its almost common these days .All was going well when someone raised an issue that instead of course criteria companies should come on basis of previous degrees acquired.Hell........these morons are the primary source of my negative energy .These dumb morons have acquired their marks in some university where they stand nowhere amongst toppers(Forget the university level),and then they feel that they are superior to guys over here who have less marks but have skills way ahead than most of software proffesionals in the industry .Well i m a BE graduate but even i feel the dignty of this course and in any condition i refer this place or course a milestone in my life .Even i can say this place has given me a sense of meaning to my life as a programmer. The pathetic morons as i mentioned earlier stand nowhere in front of anyone who gives wholeheart to do this project or course over here in NCST .These A$0 neither have the capability nor the thinking to complete the course and think themselves to be master minds .I feel like saying too much about these dumbasses but i wont like to spend my valuable blog space for those morons .So i will summarize them in only one word BULLSHIT.
Well enough of the morons lets speak about what i feel now after all the stuff.I feel that the same NCST that was within me is back.I feel the passion of NCST ian in me still lives and once again i feel NCST Reincarnated in me......
Monday, April 02, 2007
Attitude revisited :-(
Today i am facing one of the hardest circumstances in life.One of my friend is gonna receive his offer letter in his hands .Perhaps this is the key reason for my disappointment.
I am not too old, but dring my life so far i have grown up with a habbit of analyzing a person by the way he speaks or behaves.Most of the time i guess right what a person feels by the way he speaks.
Yesterday my friend got almost placed and i felt that the job he was gonna take is not worth his potential .I advised him not to ewerceive it but to follow the education and success will touch his feet after sometime .He was almost convinced for it but some Loserz with a pathetic attitude spoilt the day for me .For now duwe to their influence i have to admit that oe more friend of mine has become one of those loserz. Its this pathetic category of loosers that spoil the party everytime.These loserz with their damn F*****g attitude live and die as frogs.Morever the people in the industry who acquire a comparitively higher post who are supposed to be the epitome of cool attitude lead the bunch of frogs.
I dont say that a person shouldnt be away from society or refrain the norms of the society.But at least a person should have ambition to make his life worth living.Nowadays i am with people in NCST who are dying for jobs , i dont blame these people for doing so as their famly depends on them.But i surely blame their attitude and thinking that makes them mere creeps.
I on personal basis have certain ambitions i aspire for far beyond these people can think . People say persons with such ambitions to be mad but hell ...mad people create hisory . I never say that i might surely complete my dreams i may even fail to fulfill my aspirations or ambitions .But one thing for sure that by the time i w ill die i would surely feel that my life was worth living..........................................
I am not too old, but dring my life so far i have grown up with a habbit of analyzing a person by the way he speaks or behaves.Most of the time i guess right what a person feels by the way he speaks.
Yesterday my friend got almost placed and i felt that the job he was gonna take is not worth his potential .I advised him not to ewerceive it but to follow the education and success will touch his feet after sometime .He was almost convinced for it but some Loserz with a pathetic attitude spoilt the day for me .For now duwe to their influence i have to admit that oe more friend of mine has become one of those loserz. Its this pathetic category of loosers that spoil the party everytime.These loserz with their damn F*****g attitude live and die as frogs.Morever the people in the industry who acquire a comparitively higher post who are supposed to be the epitome of cool attitude lead the bunch of frogs.
I dont say that a person shouldnt be away from society or refrain the norms of the society.But at least a person should have ambition to make his life worth living.Nowadays i am with people in NCST who are dying for jobs , i dont blame these people for doing so as their famly depends on them.But i surely blame their attitude and thinking that makes them mere creeps.
I on personal basis have certain ambitions i aspire for far beyond these people can think . People say persons with such ambitions to be mad but hell ...mad people create hisory . I never say that i might surely complete my dreams i may even fail to fulfill my aspirations or ambitions .But one thing for sure that by the time i w ill die i would surely feel that my life was worth living..........................................
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Guts.........naaah .. mere hoaxes ???.......
hi guys,
Today i learned a new programming aspect in NCST (as usual ).Well this blog is by no means dedicated to that aspect.This blog is for the nature of people i m facing nowadays.
Few days back there was a preplacement talk conducted in our campus.All the students have taken the responsibility of conducting the company visits in the campus.I remember at that time our sir told one thing"In the Interview Room when the interviewer says about the joining date and the packages then all the things you discuss to be right or wrong are all vanished".Today i rewalised what it meant today one of my friend got placed .Prior going there he was very confident of rejecting the comany ,keeping his demands in front of company but today after the interview i can conclude only one thing that it takes a lot of guts to say something and to follow the same.
Last few of my essays were based on my principles ..well i m thankful to them that atleast they have kept me at bay from such a circumstances.The principles of mine have always supported me to say what i feel and behave in accordance with it,Perhaps (touchwood) till i follow them they will not let my words fall down.
Coming back to the topic of the blog i just feel a bit irritated and rustrated by my friends selection,Not because he got selected but bcoz the tone he said this to me that he got selected .I was assuming he would be a bit dissatisfied by the job..but the things were other way round.Morevere he even hasnt informed the conditions that were kept infront of him during his interview to his parents ...??well what can i say to such an attitude..i just pity over the guy.Undoubtedly i now rate him for his potential way below i used to rate him.Right now i am not in any mood to say a word about it.perhaps i m feeling too bad to say anything .i should stop now...i cant sustain this any longer.
Today i learned a new programming aspect in NCST (as usual ).Well this blog is by no means dedicated to that aspect.This blog is for the nature of people i m facing nowadays.
Few days back there was a preplacement talk conducted in our campus.All the students have taken the responsibility of conducting the company visits in the campus.I remember at that time our sir told one thing"In the Interview Room when the interviewer says about the joining date and the packages then all the things you discuss to be right or wrong are all vanished".Today i rewalised what it meant today one of my friend got placed .Prior going there he was very confident of rejecting the comany ,keeping his demands in front of company but today after the interview i can conclude only one thing that it takes a lot of guts to say something and to follow the same.
Last few of my essays were based on my principles ..well i m thankful to them that atleast they have kept me at bay from such a circumstances.The principles of mine have always supported me to say what i feel and behave in accordance with it,Perhaps (touchwood) till i follow them they will not let my words fall down.
Coming back to the topic of the blog i just feel a bit irritated and rustrated by my friends selection,Not because he got selected but bcoz the tone he said this to me that he got selected .I was assuming he would be a bit dissatisfied by the job..but the things were other way round.Morevere he even hasnt informed the conditions that were kept infront of him during his interview to his parents ...??well what can i say to such an attitude..i just pity over the guy.Undoubtedly i now rate him for his potential way below i used to rate him.Right now i am not in any mood to say a word about it.perhaps i m feeling too bad to say anything .i should stop now...i cant sustain this any longer.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Another happy day i would ever remember
hi guys,
Today its an awesome day for me .Today we had our placement interviews conducted at CDAC and most of us appeared for it.I was never planning to join wipro so no regrets for me .But the most precious moment was when my best friend prashant was selected for the job.He was not too much satisfied by the job but still i felt happy as the motto by which he joined CDAC has been fulfilled.
Today its an awesome day for me .Today we had our placement interviews conducted at CDAC and most of us appeared for it.I was never planning to join wipro so no regrets for me .But the most precious moment was when my best friend prashant was selected for the job.He was not too much satisfied by the job but still i felt happy as the motto by which he joined CDAC has been fulfilled.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Pride Crucified...
hi guys,
Today this is my second blog of the day and the reason for it is my feelings.Today i was hurt to one of my utmost levels since being in CDAC.Today the closed ones have hurted me.Previously in my previous blogs i metioned about principles .Well then the few guys who tried tp screw my principles contain my closed ones too.
In cDAC i felt before today that no matter anyone admire me or not ,my closest friend will always be on my side.But yesterday i realized that he also thinks otherwise.His thinking is also same as that of others .
In CDAC of late people have started doubting my abilities moreoften.But still i have the passion to go on.I feel i have the instincts that can keep me going on as before.Till yesterday i was feeling that my closest friend also believes that..but couple of hour of discussion and it changed all the equations.What conclusion i have drawn from the whole incident was MY FRIEND ALSO THINKS THE SAME AS OTHERS DO and HE ALSO DOUBTS MY ABILITIES .Initially i thought i was not alone in the battle but now i feel that i have to go alone all the way long.Now its not a battle for my pride but its battle for my existence.
At the end of the day only one moral from the entire thing ............................It always hurts a lot to be hurted by close ones.
Today this is my second blog of the day and the reason for it is my feelings.Today i was hurt to one of my utmost levels since being in CDAC.Today the closed ones have hurted me.Previously in my previous blogs i metioned about principles .Well then the few guys who tried tp screw my principles contain my closed ones too.
In cDAC i felt before today that no matter anyone admire me or not ,my closest friend will always be on my side.But yesterday i realized that he also thinks otherwise.His thinking is also same as that of others .
In CDAC of late people have started doubting my abilities moreoften.But still i have the passion to go on.I feel i have the instincts that can keep me going on as before.Till yesterday i was feeling that my closest friend also believes that..but couple of hour of discussion and it changed all the equations.What conclusion i have drawn from the whole incident was MY FRIEND ALSO THINKS THE SAME AS OTHERS DO and HE ALSO DOUBTS MY ABILITIES .Initially i thought i was not alone in the battle but now i feel that i have to go alone all the way long.Now its not a battle for my pride but its battle for my existence.
At the end of the day only one moral from the entire thing ............................It always hurts a lot to be hurted by close ones.
PRINCIPLES ..............????
hi guys,
This time around i have with me an isuue that has been mangling in my mind since last night .Last night i was a bit bewildered about whether a man should have principles or not.
I am a man with my own principles which by no means bisobey the moral duties of a person.I beleive that my principles can bring me success no matter what if i follow them ....even if they dont i am sure that they will never lead to my downfall. Also when i am on the route to failure, at the end of the day i feel satisfied that still one more day my principles have sustained without being altered and still they add meaning to my life.In the current scenario when people have principles for the stake of saying my principles always make me feel to be seperated from these pathetic mortals.I feel a principle is the only thing that makes the life worth living for a person,without which i guess there wont be any difference between a life of a dog and that of a human.
All these was fine and still i feel i m still right.But yesterday someone tried to prove how wrong was i to have those principles.It didnt cause me much harm to think about that, but i felt like my principles are being tampered with .I was almost made to think about whether i was wrong or not.Infact still i have not fully recovered from the stress of the whole massacre .
Meanwhile my principle dont allow me to see anything wrong and to bear it quitely but today i saw few (MGPT) papers of our institute being stealed by my batchmates claiming to have high moral values.Well what am i supposed to do in this scenario ....i say what i did...nothing simply nothing..................why bcoz i was made to think that what those noble souls are doing is an act of utmost greatness and i was a #*(k!*8 4$$h0|3 who thinks otherwise.What was i supposed to do ..what i did....all the questions have just screwed my mind.
Nthing more to say .....i guess my thinking doesnt even permit me to write anything more here...perhaps should remain silent.
This time around i have with me an isuue that has been mangling in my mind since last night .Last night i was a bit bewildered about whether a man should have principles or not.
I am a man with my own principles which by no means bisobey the moral duties of a person.I beleive that my principles can bring me success no matter what if i follow them ....even if they dont i am sure that they will never lead to my downfall. Also when i am on the route to failure, at the end of the day i feel satisfied that still one more day my principles have sustained without being altered and still they add meaning to my life.In the current scenario when people have principles for the stake of saying my principles always make me feel to be seperated from these pathetic mortals.I feel a principle is the only thing that makes the life worth living for a person,without which i guess there wont be any difference between a life of a dog and that of a human.
All these was fine and still i feel i m still right.But yesterday someone tried to prove how wrong was i to have those principles.It didnt cause me much harm to think about that, but i felt like my principles are being tampered with .I was almost made to think about whether i was wrong or not.Infact still i have not fully recovered from the stress of the whole massacre .
Meanwhile my principle dont allow me to see anything wrong and to bear it quitely but today i saw few (MGPT) papers of our institute being stealed by my batchmates claiming to have high moral values.Well what am i supposed to do in this scenario ....i say what i did...nothing simply nothing..................why bcoz i was made to think that what those noble souls are doing is an act of utmost greatness and i was a #*(k!*8 4$$h0|3 who thinks otherwise.What was i supposed to do ..what i did....all the questions have just screwed my mind.
Nthing more to say .....i guess my thinking doesnt even permit me to write anything more here...perhaps should remain silent.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Review Worth forgetting....
Hi guys,
Once more i m back with my feelings.As usual this feelings correspond to irritation more than anything else.Yesterday we had our ER review,one word that i would think after the overall review was ..SHIT.... .Prior to this course i never had DBMS as my subject so i had no prior knowledge of DBMS .Naturally i had to read a lot before going into the review .I did as much i could read and went for the review.I was expecting some sort of discrepancy in my knowledge before going to the review but when i faced the review i just felt to be torn apart .I was told to do what was not supposed to be a part of RDBMS....shit ...a real piece of shit.If i was supposed to do that what the hell in this world made them to think that they are teaching us RDBMS.I agree that i m ignorant about most of things in RDBMS but what i know is certainly right and not just a fake concept .Yesterday i felt the vaccum in the NCST's reputation as a good teaching institute.
At this moment i m the PL of our group and frankly speaking i m not at all certain about the nature of our projects fate , if the curator himself tries to become predator then what destiny can a survivor have .
Yesterday we didnt even cover all our ER review.After all the stuff that our group underwent yesterday i am now feeling in no man's land ...not knowing where to go ,but still my nature is forcing me to stay on what i feel right and not to be deviated towards anything else no matter if anyone else feels it wrong ....and till i feel it right...
Once more i m back with my feelings.As usual this feelings correspond to irritation more than anything else.Yesterday we had our ER review,one word that i would think after the overall review was ..SHIT.... .Prior to this course i never had DBMS as my subject so i had no prior knowledge of DBMS .Naturally i had to read a lot before going into the review .I did as much i could read and went for the review.I was expecting some sort of discrepancy in my knowledge before going to the review but when i faced the review i just felt to be torn apart .I was told to do what was not supposed to be a part of RDBMS....shit ...a real piece of shit.If i was supposed to do that what the hell in this world made them to think that they are teaching us RDBMS.I agree that i m ignorant about most of things in RDBMS but what i know is certainly right and not just a fake concept .Yesterday i felt the vaccum in the NCST's reputation as a good teaching institute.
At this moment i m the PL of our group and frankly speaking i m not at all certain about the nature of our projects fate , if the curator himself tries to become predator then what destiny can a survivor have .
Yesterday we didnt even cover all our ER review.After all the stuff that our group underwent yesterday i am now feeling in no man's land ...not knowing where to go ,but still my nature is forcing me to stay on what i feel right and not to be deviated towards anything else no matter if anyone else feels it wrong ....and till i feel it right...
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Mere Mortals....
hi guys its quite an absurd feeling to get on blogging after such a long time .This time around i feel like repairing the misconceptions that i had about my "Dreamland".Previously i mentioned that the most of the students over here are freaks...." hell.. now it feels that i how insane was i to think like that " ;Its almost nearing the end of course and not many students are left over here and this time around i see only very few freaks remaining...can anyone guess whom i m referring to??...by reading my previous blogs you might say that i might be indicating towards few remaining students.Well then for everyone's surprise its not the students but my very own idols the so called "TEACHERS " over here.
These freaking mortals call themselves teachers and hell they dont know how to behave so .The prime freak of all is my most prominent idol over here.Initially i thought that he had the every characteristic that a teacher should belong but to my dissapointment he heads the list of freaks.....He can be the prime candidate for the Fr34K!n9 personality of NCST .Once proclaimed as undoubtedly the best person to have as an mentor ,now symbolises a perfect favourite for 4$$ l!c^erz .
Few days back we had our demos being conducted.We were evaluated by the most appropriate person(NCSTian ) in NCST .I didnt fair that good in that demo but was satisfied by my performance .In the same week my "Fr34K!n9 idol " conducted demo for other group.And to noone's surprise his favourite "4$$ l!c^er" has scraped through not bcoz of his ability but due to his "4$$ l!c^!n9" ability.Even if that was not enough this idol of mine claims to me that this 8!t)|^| headed 84$t$r|) can be my future leader.Hell i dont know how #### did he get this divine interpretation in hi s mind.Undoubtedly this idol of mine has got great ability in programming...in every field of CS that i know(and even beyond it ),his image as a great CS personnel or a scientist in my view is still undamaged and can never be broken .Even now as far as knowledge gaining is considered i still would desire to have him as mentor.The only thing that however will always keep on pricking me is his ####### partiality and attitude.
Its almost hell of a slang full of a blog and my blood is still boiling for more slangs towards my idol (i m also one of mere mortal )but then too i m a bit cultured so i better stop here ; Probably if i keep on writing such blogs then the day is not far when i will be writing a dictionary of slangs.Perhaps would be redefining the very meaninng of slangs .I know this blog wont be read by many perhaps by none but this blog is for myself....i wanna break free...break free from the illusions that this idol of mine gave me .
These freaking mortals call themselves teachers and hell they dont know how to behave so .The prime freak of all is my most prominent idol over here.Initially i thought that he had the every characteristic that a teacher should belong but to my dissapointment he heads the list of freaks.....He can be the prime candidate for the Fr34K!n9 personality of NCST .Once proclaimed as undoubtedly the best person to have as an mentor ,now symbolises a perfect favourite for 4$$ l!c^erz .
Few days back we had our demos being conducted.We were evaluated by the most appropriate person(NCSTian ) in NCST .I didnt fair that good in that demo but was satisfied by my performance .In the same week my "Fr34K!n9 idol " conducted demo for other group.And to noone's surprise his favourite "4$$ l!c^er" has scraped through not bcoz of his ability but due to his "4$$ l!c^!n9" ability.Even if that was not enough this idol of mine claims to me that this 8!t)|^| headed 84$t$r|) can be my future leader.Hell i dont know how #### did he get this divine interpretation in hi s mind.Undoubtedly this idol of mine has got great ability in programming...in every field of CS that i know(and even beyond it ),his image as a great CS personnel or a scientist in my view is still undamaged and can never be broken .Even now as far as knowledge gaining is considered i still would desire to have him as mentor.The only thing that however will always keep on pricking me is his ####### partiality and attitude.
Its almost hell of a slang full of a blog and my blood is still boiling for more slangs towards my idol (i m also one of mere mortal )but then too i m a bit cultured so i better stop here ; Probably if i keep on writing such blogs then the day is not far when i will be writing a dictionary of slangs.Perhaps would be redefining the very meaninng of slangs .I know this blog wont be read by many perhaps by none but this blog is for myself....i wanna break free...break free from the illusions that this idol of mine gave me .
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Feeling good
Today i gave my first C MGPA .It was as per my expectations.I cleared 1 out of the two problems that were given.Its not that good as per the standards that i set for myself but still doesnt make any differnce on my mood .Even though i have failed to clear today I know that i am destined to clear the MGPA in very near future so it doesnt matter that much to me ,but still i am happy due to some other reasons.The reasons are still unknown to me but i am feeling good.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Winds of Change
This is my second blog for the day.The topics may sound similiar and on the same lines but frankly speaking they are the cause and effect of each other.
I mentioned in my previous blogs that i felt stressed relations nowadays in NCST.Well the news is that i too am a victim of such a scenario.I mentioned before a month that i am enjoying my stay at NCST due to my friends .But nowadays i m feeling a bit letdown due to the same friends.
Its due to these friends only that i feel to be amongst strangers these days.
It all started with the selection of project group and the formations of new group.In the past two weeks the atmosphere has become a hell of tense over here.The friends that i beleived to be with me in any circumstances have started to confuse me about their relations .Well i know things change with time .....but if this much change in such small duration ......then hell i will be pissed up completely by the time i leave NCST.The thinking ,the way i used to make friends before this module has changed drastically after seeing the current scenario.Now i feel a doubtful making new relations.
I m not saying that i have not changed but its all due the way people are behaving with me.
I m finding it difficult to tackle my "FRIENDS" .The way they behave with me nowadays has made me feel to not to spend much time with them.Even my temper has started losing quiet frequently.Today i dont know how i m gonna tackle the next person i am going to talk ..simply because all the guys who meet me speak to me abt their relations with me instead of talking in ways we talked before .Meanwhile the only silver lining that i have seen in such situations is that i have found a few new friends with whom i like spending time .Well frankly speaking at this moment i fear making new friends.
I feel that the winds of change has swept my belief over friends.
I mentioned in my previous blogs that i felt stressed relations nowadays in NCST.Well the news is that i too am a victim of such a scenario.I mentioned before a month that i am enjoying my stay at NCST due to my friends .But nowadays i m feeling a bit letdown due to the same friends.
Its due to these friends only that i feel to be amongst strangers these days.
It all started with the selection of project group and the formations of new group.In the past two weeks the atmosphere has become a hell of tense over here.The friends that i beleived to be with me in any circumstances have started to confuse me about their relations .Well i know things change with time .....but if this much change in such small duration ......then hell i will be pissed up completely by the time i leave NCST.The thinking ,the way i used to make friends before this module has changed drastically after seeing the current scenario.Now i feel a doubtful making new relations.
I m not saying that i have not changed but its all due the way people are behaving with me.
I m finding it difficult to tackle my "FRIENDS" .The way they behave with me nowadays has made me feel to not to spend much time with them.Even my temper has started losing quiet frequently.Today i dont know how i m gonna tackle the next person i am going to talk ..simply because all the guys who meet me speak to me abt their relations with me instead of talking in ways we talked before .Meanwhile the only silver lining that i have seen in such situations is that i have found a few new friends with whom i like spending time .Well frankly speaking at this moment i fear making new friends.
I feel that the winds of change has swept my belief over friends.
A New Beginning
hi friends ,
its almost a month since writing my last blog.Its quite gruesome schedule over here ,so writing a blog seems to be a sort of timepass at this stage .But still i have managed time to write this one.Its almost couple of weeks in NCST and we have been assigned projects.
Initially while the project groups were assigned there was a bit controversy regarding the selection of group members.It was quite a pissed up period as i realized that the relations that i thought to be so strong shatter up.Even the best of relations that i had seen here have become a bit stressed .
I personally feel this period to be absolutely testing for me.I made new friends and even felt like losing some old ones .Condition today exists such that i feel a bit doubtful about my own friends.
I never take things that seriously at any time , i always say that i cant bend down to tension however now beleive me i feel like i have never faced such situation before.
But as the days pass on ......i go on beleiving its a new beginning.
Nothing more to say now.
its almost a month since writing my last blog.Its quite gruesome schedule over here ,so writing a blog seems to be a sort of timepass at this stage .But still i have managed time to write this one.Its almost couple of weeks in NCST and we have been assigned projects.
Initially while the project groups were assigned there was a bit controversy regarding the selection of group members.It was quite a pissed up period as i realized that the relations that i thought to be so strong shatter up.Even the best of relations that i had seen here have become a bit stressed .
I personally feel this period to be absolutely testing for me.I made new friends and even felt like losing some old ones .Condition today exists such that i feel a bit doubtful about my own friends.
I never take things that seriously at any time , i always say that i cant bend down to tension however now beleive me i feel like i have never faced such situation before.
But as the days pass on ......i go on beleiving its a new beginning.
Nothing more to say now.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
About me...
hi friends ..today i feel like telling about myself .I belong to the city of dreams Mumbai.i have completed my B.E in electronics and telecommunication with 65% .
Well what can i say of myself ...its quite a absurd feeling for me to write about myself.I am not a shy kind of person but its feeling like praising myself or just an essay about myseldf.
My fields of interest are related to embedded systems .I am a die hard fan of embedded system programming and love to make microcontroller programmers .
i m very fond of western music,and more of occasional dancer.Iwatch only english movies and hate hindi movies.The most irritating thing for me on tv however are the age old SANS BAHU serials.
The most fascinating aspect of my cahracter is i love ssembly language programming in any respect(whether windows or dos).I am a computer crazy guy.It is quite frustrating to live without computer for even a single day without computer for me.Even i ve coded few programs which most of us hate the most(contact me for more details).
As far as my friends are considered i bet u cant ve more.I am a quite conservative guy as far as my relationships are considered .I don't make any friends till i find the guy to be worth of it.This has proved to be the most crucial factor for my long relationships with my friends.
My father is a scientist.I ve spent quite a lot of time watching him in his lab.I feel this as reason of my curious nature about things.
I am a curious guy .My hobbies are outdoor sports in any aspects.I love cricket the most.I could equate only watching cricket to computer coding.
Eventough i ve played cricket for most of the time then too i have a bit of interest for other games too.For a change let me tell that i am a bronze medalist in ball-badminton at inter-college sports meet.I have even represented our college for soft-ball competitions.
I am quite selective about food .i absolutely hate rice ....no wonder i hate cdac canteen.It really makes me sick eating only rice in the canteen.I think by the time i leave cdac i might lose some weight .
Well i am a normal guy.most probably u must be waiting for my views towards CDAC.Well CDAC to me is a programmers paradise.And for a guy like me who dwells most of the time with computers u can imagine just how it feels to me.But certainly the most annoying thing for me at CDAC (with whom most of boys will agree) is the most obvious for every guy in CDAC ...The GIRLS ..what can i say u just guess ?.(Girls pls do not get me wrong but the place where i belong is just too good).
One thing that i surely like to mention is my thinking.I admire Prithviraj Chauhan.He has been a source of admiration and inspiration for me ever since things began making sense to me.I beleive that every problem has solution and it is possible to get way around any situation if a person has the required patience and endurance.
Well its been quite an absurd discussion (probably essay) on me.I hate lying (except about the annoying things in cdac).So u can know abt my nature quite well now onwards ....hopefully.
To comment or not to .
I just read a blog before writing this blog of mine. It was about a person's thinking.It was a good article from a writer's point of view but i dont think that there should be any comment on that blog.It was a blog and naturally comments are due to come,but the person commenting should consider the fact that its the person's individual thinking and no one can say anything about what a person should think and what he shouldn't .Even if the commenter comments for the wellbeing of the writer but still the writer has considered blogging as a platform to express his views to outer world which he would have avoided to express normally.The writer might be feeling something abt a thing in his way and from his point of view the thing might be at a different position as compared to the commenter ,so the commenter has no write to critisize a person or to praise him as a wrong word can cause a let down or can cause a sense of overconfidence among a guy.
And as far as i m concerned i feel it a real nuisance to impose our thinking to a person who is quite sure about his thoughts and how he is affected by them.
And as far as i m concerned i feel it a real nuisance to impose our thinking to a person who is quite sure about his thoughts and how he is affected by them.
Friday, October 13, 2006
Blogging to me ..
Its my second blog on blogging.Initially i thought that blogging to me would cause no impact on me and my thinking.Well now after 2 months i haven't seen a noticiable change in my thinking...but yes i do agree that certainly blogging has helped me certainly.
I do have a exciting Life and things do go wrong sometimes .Previously i felt to express it to some proper person but i never met the person i was looking for .I mean friends are ok ,even my family is understanding family.But certain things cant be expressed to anyone.I felt like expressing it to someone but at the same time i was afraid of me being wrong or my view was appealing to anyone .Now however i beleive that blogging has to some extent has satisfied my quest.
Today whenever i feel like speaking to someone no matter what i do it on my blog .I don't expect comments on my blog .....and not even hope, anyone to read them but even after my blog goes unnoticed i feel a piece of mind.As i write this blog i found people searching for blog topics but i feel as far as blogging goes with the heart and ur feelings till then only its being worth.
As far as my view is concerned about blogging (Ever since i wrote my first blog)then thumbs up for blogging.
I do have a exciting Life and things do go wrong sometimes .Previously i felt to express it to some proper person but i never met the person i was looking for .I mean friends are ok ,even my family is understanding family.But certain things cant be expressed to anyone.I felt like expressing it to someone but at the same time i was afraid of me being wrong or my view was appealing to anyone .Now however i beleive that blogging has to some extent has satisfied my quest.
Today whenever i feel like speaking to someone no matter what i do it on my blog .I don't expect comments on my blog .....and not even hope, anyone to read them but even after my blog goes unnoticed i feel a piece of mind.As i write this blog i found people searching for blog topics but i feel as far as blogging goes with the heart and ur feelings till then only its being worth.
As far as my view is concerned about blogging (Ever since i wrote my first blog)then thumbs up for blogging.
Friends at NCST
Its almost 2 months in NCST, it has been good experience so far.Initially it was a bit of absurd feeling to be here away from home but now i am adapted here quite well ...thanks to friends over here.
Being a calm natured person i never found it difficult to be with admirable persons.But here at NCST i have a bit different experience.I never trusted persons instantly prior to this but here in NCST i dont know why ,whomever i met i immediately start to trust him.My friends here in Ncst are the prime reason for me being at comfort in NCST. The list goes quite long but i would few of my favourites .
The most interesting person that i met throughout my career belongs to NCST.He is from allahabad .He has a quite distinct way of speaking to people .His ascent in particular is worth mentioning .If you talk to that person for a couple of time ...then he can be one of the most amazing person you ever met.He has a great sense of humour .Whenever i fell troubled and if i visit him once ..no matter how depressed i m ..i feel a bit uplifted.He is one of the few people that i do admire a lot at NCST.
The most antique friend of mine is the "ROCK".Really if you see him the only thing that you can think of is a rock.He has a extreme body build and what can you say about his voice if there is a voice that rocks NCST then undoubtedly it is the voice of the rock itself .He is a bit Psycho type of personality.Hell you wanna see anyone nervous ..... watch him after MGPA
if he fails to clear his MGPA then you can get all the divine psychology of a person you ever knew about.And if clears his MGPA then you need a real endurance to hear him.He will literally quote his entire logic in front of you and will keep quoting until you get all of it.Even tough he is a rock he is a senti sort of guy .He does become emotional sometimes .If i trust a person as a good friend and a good person then he certainly leads the way.Its quiet a good bewildered feeling to be with him as a friend.....nothing more to express him in words.
One of the good friends that i have is a bit mixed type of unpredicted chatacter .You can never guess what his mood after a couple of hours. If he is a joyous at this moment I bet you can never predict his face after 2 hrs.I won't say much abt him .I feel i don't know him much.
Well that's only a few ...but still the list goes on and on .
Being a calm natured person i never found it difficult to be with admirable persons.But here at NCST i have a bit different experience.I never trusted persons instantly prior to this but here in NCST i dont know why ,whomever i met i immediately start to trust him.My friends here in Ncst are the prime reason for me being at comfort in NCST. The list goes quite long but i would few of my favourites .
The most interesting person that i met throughout my career belongs to NCST.He is from allahabad .He has a quite distinct way of speaking to people .His ascent in particular is worth mentioning .If you talk to that person for a couple of time ...then he can be one of the most amazing person you ever met.He has a great sense of humour .Whenever i fell troubled and if i visit him once ..no matter how depressed i m ..i feel a bit uplifted.He is one of the few people that i do admire a lot at NCST.
The most antique friend of mine is the "ROCK".Really if you see him the only thing that you can think of is a rock.He has a extreme body build and what can you say about his voice if there is a voice that rocks NCST then undoubtedly it is the voice of the rock itself .He is a bit Psycho type of personality.Hell you wanna see anyone nervous ..... watch him after MGPA
if he fails to clear his MGPA then you can get all the divine psychology of a person you ever knew about.And if clears his MGPA then you need a real endurance to hear him.He will literally quote his entire logic in front of you and will keep quoting until you get all of it.Even tough he is a rock he is a senti sort of guy .He does become emotional sometimes .If i trust a person as a good friend and a good person then he certainly leads the way.Its quiet a good bewildered feeling to be with him as a friend.....nothing more to express him in words.
One of the good friends that i have is a bit mixed type of unpredicted chatacter .You can never guess what his mood after a couple of hours. If he is a joyous at this moment I bet you can never predict his face after 2 hrs.I won't say much abt him .I feel i don't know him much.
Well that's only a few ...but still the list goes on and on .
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
My Cherishable moments at NCST.
Today its almost 2.5 months since i had been to NCST .Its quite an interesting journey for me.Every day here in NCST has been a bag full of surprises to me.Every passing moment i can feel new and new excitements waiting for me.So far its a dream journey for me ,no harsh failures ,no let downs and most noteworthy a whole lot of trustful friends.Even if i state the entire stay at NCST distinctly in each blog it would make an exciting blog indeed,but today i feel to tell you the most cherishable moments that i felt here it gives me a hell of pleasure to venture into those eternal memories.
Clearing my second MGPA can be considered one of the most distinct memory of my study life over here.I was a bitr let down by my first MGPA performance as i failed to complete problem in less time.No matter did i cleared the first problem easily but i was about 20 minutes late then what i expected.I however managed to clear my second MGPA in less than 15 minutes ,and the moment i saw all 'Y' in parikshak i felt the joy i had come to feel to in NCST.It was like achieving what i had planned and receiving all as per the plan.
I had never been a keen listener during lectures but my secondmost cherishable moment is related to lectures.It was a lecture of our DSAL professor.I had previously attended his lecture one time before but as i m not a keen listener i never paid attention to it .But this lecture was a special one it was abt some data structure in JAVA.I was as usual un-attentive ,but the way he taught us made me realize what i had been looking for in a teacher ever since.Eventough i was unattentive -the way he teached -by the end i got what he said ...every single concept.I had never attended any really great person in my life( except politicians...great people ..what the hell!) but seeing our sir teaching in that lecture made me feel that i met with the idol i should have in my life .
One of the most interesting memories that i cherish is of the trip that we had to nandi hills.
I have already written a blog over it.But i can't complete this blog without mentioning it .I don't say that it was an outstanding trip in my entire life but certainly it was a special trip for me .......... i don't know why.I had been to trips before but this was special really special.I enjoyed the entire trip within last 1 hr but felt the pleasure i never had felt at NCST with my friends.
Well these are very few memories of mine over here but trust me here at NCST my life has much much much more excitement and moments to cherish.Maybe i will traverse through them quiet some other time.
Clearing my second MGPA can be considered one of the most distinct memory of my study life over here.I was a bitr let down by my first MGPA performance as i failed to complete problem in less time.No matter did i cleared the first problem easily but i was about 20 minutes late then what i expected.I however managed to clear my second MGPA in less than 15 minutes ,and the moment i saw all 'Y' in parikshak i felt the joy i had come to feel to in NCST.It was like achieving what i had planned and receiving all as per the plan.
I had never been a keen listener during lectures but my secondmost cherishable moment is related to lectures.It was a lecture of our DSAL professor.I had previously attended his lecture one time before but as i m not a keen listener i never paid attention to it .But this lecture was a special one it was abt some data structure in JAVA.I was as usual un-attentive ,but the way he taught us made me realize what i had been looking for in a teacher ever since.Eventough i was unattentive -the way he teached -by the end i got what he said ...every single concept.I had never attended any really great person in my life( except politicians...great people ..what the hell!) but seeing our sir teaching in that lecture made me feel that i met with the idol i should have in my life .
One of the most interesting memories that i cherish is of the trip that we had to nandi hills.
I have already written a blog over it.But i can't complete this blog without mentioning it .I don't say that it was an outstanding trip in my entire life but certainly it was a special trip for me .......... i don't know why.I had been to trips before but this was special really special.I enjoyed the entire trip within last 1 hr but felt the pleasure i never had felt at NCST with my friends.
Well these are very few memories of mine over here but trust me here at NCST my life has much much much more excitement and moments to cherish.Maybe i will traverse through them quiet some other time.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
A normal day...
Today i am happy a bit ,today i played one of satisfying roles in volleyball court and played cricket a bit . It is usual to for me to play quite well at the court but today it was special i did not played outstandingly but managed to squeeze through some smart points for our team.Any outdoor sport has at any time given me pleasure no matter what the sport is i have always enjoyed playing sports.Its been quite a long time playing s cricket in bangalore ,however i played it today.Finally i m happy.On the other hand any indoor sport has always screwed me and as usual i am completely screwed by playing carrom at evening.
One more thing today i used my ICICI atm card for the first time .i have been using Sbi atm card normally and its not a big problem to withdraw money.But my first encounter with ICICI was not good at all .I withdrew abt 4000rs and hell half of the notes got stuck in the machine itself even the security shooked his hand off saying he can't do anything .So eventually i had to use all of my fingering skills to remove each note forcefully out of the machine.(It was hell for me as not even my a single finger of mine was entering the slot ).The best part was i skipped the entire part of our TCOM session.
So finally it was another normal day at Ncst
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One more thing today i used my ICICI atm card for the first time .i have been using Sbi atm card normally and its not a big problem to withdraw money.But my first encounter with ICICI was not good at all .I withdrew abt 4000rs and hell half of the notes got stuck in the machine itself even the security shooked his hand off saying he can't do anything .So eventually i had to use all of my fingering skills to remove each note forcefully out of the machine.(It was hell for me as not even my a single finger of mine was entering the slot ).The best part was i skipped the entire part of our TCOM session.
So finally it was another normal day at Ncst
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Sunday, October 01, 2006
A Smile Worth Entire Trip..
Hi guys,
I have given almost the entire aspects of the trip in the entire trip.But i felt the entire hapiness compressed to a single a phase in the trip .......it was neither a scene nor words from someone but it was a smile....only a smile.....I never beleived that a single human expression can impact so much ,but yesterday i felt it.It was a bit tiring trip for all of us Especially our group had some strange fellings throughout.But all that we suffered was wiped clean through just by a smile.
The most interesting part is yet to come ,you might think tha i must be a smile of a girl but for ur disappointment it was a smile of a boy(i m a guy of straight sexual orientation).
It was hell boring to see people dance in same styles in each song they received .However the most enjoyable part was when our group danced without considering any one else thinks of us.I even saw individuals who i thought would never dance in their life in public perform tricks that were just awesome.I can never forget the happiness on the face of one of my friend after a small step of dance.Hell i never dance could be so expressive .I used to dance in DJ's in my native place ,i had occassionally visited pubs also but i had never such a smile on a person's face while dancing.Eventually that one smile and happiness was the thing to remember throught my trip.perhaps i would write another blog on it .This memory of mine was the first in NCST.(Perhaps few others are also there but cannot be published here ).It was a phase that made me realize what human expressions can do to a human nature.
We had a trip of not many interesting phases.We all danced to music in a very small congested place .No matter what the music was but we danced .Initially there were three of us but soon as we performed the dance people joined us .We had even guys who i thought would never dance in their entire life(some guys i thought wouldn't dance even in their marriage).But soon the number increased and even the tempo also .The whole bus was almost transformed into a disco thek.I had to admit that i had never expected this scene after the last dj i visited.
We performed the all the tricks of dancing that we learnt throughtout the entitre dj sessions that we visited.And the moment that influenced me most was when i saw a friend in the group smiling while dancing Hell what can i say abt that smile ,i have neverseen a person enjoy his dancing as he was.It was not an elegant of dances but still his face showed how much he enjoyed it ,his smile even boosted my moral towards viewing things in life.Certainly it has changed my view towards watching smaller things in life.I have been with my gf's for quite a long time ,seen them smile (most often frawn),but the most cherishing smile i had was that of a friend for such a minor thing that's even worth noticing.
I have given almost the entire aspects of the trip in the entire trip.But i felt the entire hapiness compressed to a single a phase in the trip .......it was neither a scene nor words from someone but it was a smile....only a smile.....I never beleived that a single human expression can impact so much ,but yesterday i felt it.It was a bit tiring trip for all of us Especially our group had some strange fellings throughout.But all that we suffered was wiped clean through just by a smile.
The most interesting part is yet to come ,you might think tha i must be a smile of a girl but for ur disappointment it was a smile of a boy(i m a guy of straight sexual orientation).
It was hell boring to see people dance in same styles in each song they received .However the most enjoyable part was when our group danced without considering any one else thinks of us.I even saw individuals who i thought would never dance in their life in public perform tricks that were just awesome.I can never forget the happiness on the face of one of my friend after a small step of dance.Hell i never dance could be so expressive .I used to dance in DJ's in my native place ,i had occassionally visited pubs also but i had never such a smile on a person's face while dancing.Eventually that one smile and happiness was the thing to remember throught my trip.perhaps i would write another blog on it .This memory of mine was the first in NCST.(Perhaps few others are also there but cannot be published here ).It was a phase that made me realize what human expressions can do to a human nature.
We had a trip of not many interesting phases.We all danced to music in a very small congested place .No matter what the music was but we danced .Initially there were three of us but soon as we performed the dance people joined us .We had even guys who i thought would never dance in their entire life(some guys i thought wouldn't dance even in their marriage).But soon the number increased and even the tempo also .The whole bus was almost transformed into a disco thek.I had to admit that i had never expected this scene after the last dj i visited.
We performed the all the tricks of dancing that we learnt throughtout the entitre dj sessions that we visited.And the moment that influenced me most was when i saw a friend in the group smiling while dancing Hell what can i say abt that smile ,i have neverseen a person enjoy his dancing as he was.It was not an elegant of dances but still his face showed how much he enjoyed it ,his smile even boosted my moral towards viewing things in life.Certainly it has changed my view towards watching smaller things in life.I have been with my gf's for quite a long time ,seen them smile (most often frawn),but the most cherishing smile i had was that of a friend for such a minor thing that's even worth noticing.
Memories to cherish....
Helloooooooo friends,
Finally i m up with one of the most memorable event in NCST.Today we had our trip to nandi hills .Well overall it was quite "not happening " trip for most of my friends.Even to me it was hell to get up at 5:50 in the morning (My mom would faint if she hears this), i managed to remain fresh agfter getting under such abnormal conditions.
The bus was preplanned so transortation was not a big problem.i however disliked that some of my friends were forced to go in the van instead of with us in the bus.However they enjoyed it in the van so all's fine.We reached the fort at the expected time and spent some time sightseeing. I enjoyed every aspect of it as i was with some of my best friends .So far in the whole trip this was the first instance of happiness that our group had.In the bus while most of others were dancing and singing there wasn't enough space for accomodating all of us.So eventually our group was naturally subsided .This was a bit letdown for us as i began to feel that we were considered underdogs.
One of the most disgusting moment i saw was at the Lunch table.For the first time in my life i had a lunch in a bar(or anyplace where intoxicants are served freely).I had shared food with my friends before but i had never seen people fighting for food before.I never have left the table before but today i did .I m not happy for what i did but i m not even sorry for what i did .Really it was a memory i had in my life.
In the fort i had one of the few times that i enjoyed the most .I and my friends viewed every aspect of everything that we saw.I have visited many a places but this was a bit different for me somehow i felt something good i never felt in other trips.Overall i had some of the memories to cherish.
The most cherishing moment to cherish was when we had a dance in the but pehaps it can be a topic of another blog of mine.
Finally i m up with one of the most memorable event in NCST.Today we had our trip to nandi hills .Well overall it was quite "not happening " trip for most of my friends.Even to me it was hell to get up at 5:50 in the morning (My mom would faint if she hears this), i managed to remain fresh agfter getting under such abnormal conditions.
The bus was preplanned so transortation was not a big problem.i however disliked that some of my friends were forced to go in the van instead of with us in the bus.However they enjoyed it in the van so all's fine.We reached the fort at the expected time and spent some time sightseeing. I enjoyed every aspect of it as i was with some of my best friends .So far in the whole trip this was the first instance of happiness that our group had.In the bus while most of others were dancing and singing there wasn't enough space for accomodating all of us.So eventually our group was naturally subsided .This was a bit letdown for us as i began to feel that we were considered underdogs.
One of the most disgusting moment i saw was at the Lunch table.For the first time in my life i had a lunch in a bar(or anyplace where intoxicants are served freely).I had shared food with my friends before but i had never seen people fighting for food before.I never have left the table before but today i did .I m not happy for what i did but i m not even sorry for what i did .Really it was a memory i had in my life.
In the fort i had one of the few times that i enjoyed the most .I and my friends viewed every aspect of everything that we saw.I have visited many a places but this was a bit different for me somehow i felt something good i never felt in other trips.Overall i had some of the memories to cherish.
The most cherishing moment to cherish was when we had a dance in the but pehaps it can be a topic of another blog of mine.
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