Saved (or Gone) in10 minutes........

hi guys,
Today was my first MGPT after leaving CDAC.This time around my program was not running well with few bugs.I however managed to find the inputs and their corresponding outputs for the problem.By now you have guessed that the story would be tat i created a set of if else and would have submitted the problem to clear the problem.But here is the twist ...one of my sir told me thathardcoding wont be allowed and dont know why i did the most unusual thing ....i let the time pass away without entering the last step that would assure me my MGPT. I dont know why i did that or why it happened to me that i didnt complete the problem.I felt so frustrated that i argued with my sirs like a foolish kid.However by the end of the day to my astonishment i feel like being saved..............Still wondering why??

I came to NCST with a desire to beat the beast (Parikshak).I nearly have done it by clearing 1 MGPT.And today was my chance to clear it completely.But rather i think i wont want it to do tamely.Perhaps my programming ethics would have not forgiven me if i had cleared my mgpt that way , god knows how long would that shame stayed on my mind .I felt a glimpse that shame already when i learnt about the solution to the problem.Even more i was ashamed when i learnt that the person i argued with was the one of the top coders.The whole MGPT was gone in front of my eyes in last 10 minutes,had it not been to those noble words from my mentor ,i would have proved to be a shame in eyes of my mentors and myself.I dont know wheter i would be able to clear the next MGPT .i dont know wheter i would tame the parikshak.But end of the day i feel to be"Saved in 10 minutes...."

Missing u NCST :(

Today india won the T20 world cup final.It was absolutely stunning scenario at the room.Everyone was shouting like hell.I odnt know why but today i have started feeling like missing NCST friends at this odd hour .I am missing the birthday celebrations at NCST .Overall to sum up things Missing Up Ncst.

The Final innings..........

Its almost 1 o clock in the morning .Even Sikander our dearly dog and guardian at NCST is feeling it as relaxation time.Most of lights are off and i as usual as an owl roaming around in NCST remembring the happiest period my life .Most often in cricket after a tiring final day a batsman often thinks of the sweetest strokes he played these strokes keep him going to play ,to commit himself ,to live to his fullest and to enjoy his life after a tiresome day ....Today i m having no different feeling today i m seeing the most precioous strokes in my innings at NCST passing in front of my eyes as i walk through the empty corridors .
My previous blogs can easily force you think me as the most critic person of NCST perhaps most outrageous towards the things going on here.Even few hours back i was thinking to write the final signing blog ,yet another useless blog from me making no sense But now i m feeling so much constrains to write this blog ...cant help my english ...plz forgive me after all i too have emotions and this time around i cant control them.While wrting this blog i remember the most treasurable moments in my life. moments which are so simple yet cannot be forgotten.I remember the early morning getting up and rushing for breakfast...i m having illusions of bright morning and a green tila....i remember myself rushing to room after a horrible MFCS paper ...Discussing with everyone the answers after CNET quiz.I am even watching myself sitting in lawn telling my dear friend DLL ,......Prashant as always accompanying me to INFY...Searching a seat in lab after my PC crashed....The eve of 31st december before the party began...the most distant memory of nehil standing wid another friend atNCST enterance waiting for rain to stop and to reach canteen for tea.I remember the queue for breakfast ...the tension before a MGPA ..and the pain of Prashant departing.The faces after an unsuccessful placement inteview..the joy on someone's birthday ...............i see the happiness on faces when even one gets placed in an interview ............. Sorry guys no sensible things to say this time ,today i cant think anything else,Its NCST all over me tonight
Meanwhile i came here to fulfill my desires for programming and NCST has completely fulfilled it.This time around i even cleared one MGPT ..what a feeling.Today One of my friend left NCST and by next week NCST will be empty ..its haunting me already.I will be seperated from my beloved friends one by one ....finally will have to leave alone ,after such an affectionate one year .................cant even imagine myself at such position , its just like leaving my family ......Today i m placed in a decent company with average knowledge of programming.I never say by any means that i am great achiever ,but whatever i have become right now whatever i know i owe most of it to NCST.tonight i feel that whatever i say whatever i do or write NCST has become my inevitable part.It is the same NCST that i had criticized earlier but still i feel proud to be an NCSTian .Ultimately i realize that this is my second home ,........this is where i belong .......this is NCST (my home).

NCST reincarted .

Hi guys ,
Last few weeks there has been a dismay in my writing regarding NCST.Most of the views were due to the guys over here(the pathetic attitude guys).I was thinking i had started hating this place ,Even was quite sure about it.But yesterday something caused me to think what actually was i hating .
Yesterday few friends of mine were discussing about the placements in NCST.Its almost common these days .All was going well when someone raised an issue that instead of course criteria companies should come on basis of previous degrees acquired.Hell........these morons are the primary source of my negative energy .These dumb morons have acquired their marks in some university where they stand nowhere amongst toppers(Forget the university level),and then they feel that they are superior to guys over here who have less marks but have skills way ahead than most of software proffesionals in the industry .Well i m a BE graduate but even i feel the dignty of this course and in any condition i refer this place or course a milestone in my life .Even i can say this place has given me a sense of meaning to my life as a programmer. The pathetic morons as i mentioned earlier stand nowhere in front of anyone who gives wholeheart to do this project or course over here in NCST .These A$0 neither have the capability nor the thinking to complete the course and think themselves to be master minds .I feel like saying too much about these dumbasses but i wont like to spend my valuable blog space for those morons .So i will summarize them in only one word BULLSHIT.
Well enough of the morons lets speak about what i feel now after all the stuff.I feel that the same NCST that was within me is back.I feel the passion of NCST ian in me still lives and once again i feel NCST Reincarnated in me......

Attitude revisited :-(

Today i am facing one of the hardest circumstances in life.One of my friend is gonna receive his offer letter in his hands .Perhaps this is the key reason for my disappointment.
I am not too old, but dring my life so far i have grown up with a habbit of analyzing a person by the way he speaks or behaves.Most of the time i guess right what a person feels by the way he speaks.
Yesterday my friend got almost placed and i felt that the job he was gonna take is not worth his potential .I advised him not to ewerceive it but to follow the education and success will touch his feet after sometime .He was almost convinced for it but some Loserz with a pathetic attitude spoilt the day for me .For now duwe to their influence i have to admit that oe more friend of mine has become one of those loserz. Its this pathetic category of loosers that spoil the party everytime.These loserz with their damn F*****g attitude live and die as frogs.Morever the people in the industry who acquire a comparitively higher post who are supposed to be the epitome of cool attitude lead the bunch of frogs.
I dont say that a person shouldnt be away from society or refrain the norms of the society.But at least a person should have ambition to make his life worth living.Nowadays i am with people in NCST who are dying for jobs , i dont blame these people for doing so as their famly depends on them.But i surely blame their attitude and thinking that makes them mere creeps.
I on personal basis have certain ambitions i aspire for far beyond these people can think . People say persons with such ambitions to be mad but hell ...mad people create hisory . I never say that i might surely complete my dreams i may even fail to fulfill my aspirations or ambitions .But one thing for sure that by the time i w ill die i would surely feel that my life was worth living..........................................

Guts.........naaah .. mere hoaxes ???.......

hi guys,
Today i learned a new programming aspect in NCST (as usual ).Well this blog is by no means dedicated to that aspect.This blog is for the nature of people i m facing nowadays.
Few days back there was a preplacement talk conducted in our campus.All the students have taken the responsibility of conducting the company visits in the campus.I remember at that time our sir told one thing"In the Interview Room when the interviewer says about the joining date and the packages then all the things you discuss to be right or wrong are all vanished".Today i rewalised what it meant today one of my friend got placed .Prior going there he was very confident of rejecting the comany ,keeping his demands in front of company but today after the interview i can conclude only one thing that it takes a lot of guts to say something and to follow the same.
Last few of my essays were based on my principles ..well i m thankful to them that atleast they have kept me at bay from such a circumstances.The principles of mine have always supported me to say what i feel and behave in accordance with it,Perhaps (touchwood) till i follow them they will not let my words fall down.
Coming back to the topic of the blog i just feel a bit irritated and rustrated by my friends selection,Not because he got selected but bcoz the tone he said this to me that he got selected .I was assuming he would be a bit dissatisfied by the job..but the things were other way round.Morevere he even hasnt informed the conditions that were kept infront of him during his interview to his parents ...??well what can i say to such an attitude..i just pity over the guy.Undoubtedly i now rate him for his potential way below i used to rate him.Right now i am not in any mood to say a word about it.perhaps i m feeling too bad to say anything .i should stop now...i cant sustain this any longer.

Another happy day i would ever remember

hi guys,
Today its an awesome day for me .Today we had our placement interviews conducted at CDAC and most of us appeared for it.I was never planning to join wipro so no regrets for me .But the most precious moment was when my best friend prashant was selected for the job.He was not too much satisfied by the job but still i felt happy as the motto by which he joined CDAC has been fulfilled.

Pride Crucified...

hi guys,
Today this is my second blog of the day and the reason for it is my feelings.Today i was hurt to one of my utmost levels since being in CDAC.Today the closed ones have hurted me.Previously in my previous blogs i metioned about principles .Well then the few guys who tried tp screw my principles contain my closed ones too.
In cDAC i felt before today that no matter anyone admire me or not ,my closest friend will always be on my side.But yesterday i realized that he also thinks otherwise.His thinking is also same as that of others .

In CDAC of late people have started doubting my abilities moreoften.But still i have the passion to go on.I feel i have the instincts that can keep me going on as before.Till yesterday i was feeling that my closest friend also believes that..but couple of hour of discussion and it changed all the equations.What conclusion i have drawn from the whole incident was MY FRIEND ALSO THINKS THE SAME AS OTHERS DO and HE ALSO DOUBTS MY ABILITIES .Initially i thought i was not alone in the battle but now i feel that i have to go alone all the way long.Now its not a battle for my pride but its battle for my existence.
At the end of the day only one moral from the entire thing ............................It always hurts a lot to be hurted by close ones.

PRINCIPLES ..............????

hi guys,
This time around i have with me an isuue that has been mangling in my mind since last night .Last night i was a bit bewildered about whether a man should have principles or not.
I am a man with my own principles which by no means bisobey the moral duties of a person.I beleive that my principles can bring me success no matter what if i follow them ....even if they dont i am sure that they will never lead to my downfall. Also when i am on the route to failure, at the end of the day i feel satisfied that still one more day my principles have sustained without being altered and still they add meaning to my life.In the current scenario when people have principles for the stake of saying my principles always make me feel to be seperated from these pathetic mortals.I feel a principle is the only thing that makes the life worth living for a person,without which i guess there wont be any difference between a life of a dog and that of a human.
All these was fine and still i feel i m still right.But yesterday someone tried to prove how wrong was i to have those principles.It didnt cause me much harm to think about that, but i felt like my principles are being tampered with .I was almost made to think about whether i was wrong or not.Infact still i have not fully recovered from the stress of the whole massacre .
Meanwhile my principle dont allow me to see anything wrong and to bear it quitely but today i saw few (MGPT) papers of our institute being stealed by my batchmates claiming to have high moral values.Well what am i supposed to do in this scenario ....i say what i did...nothing simply nothing..................why bcoz i was made to think that what those noble souls are doing is an act of utmost greatness and i was a #*(k!*8 4$$h0|3 who thinks otherwise.What was i supposed to do ..what i did....all the questions have just screwed my mind.
Nthing more to say .....i guess my thinking doesnt even permit me to write anything more here...perhaps should remain silent.

Review Worth forgetting....

Hi guys,
Once more i m back with my feelings.As usual this feelings correspond to irritation more than anything else.Yesterday we had our ER review,one word that i would think after the overall review was ..SHIT.... .Prior to this course i never had DBMS as my subject so i had no prior knowledge of DBMS .Naturally i had to read a lot before going into the review .I did as much i could read and went for the review.I was expecting some sort of discrepancy in my knowledge before going to the review but when i faced the review i just felt to be torn apart .I was told to do what was not supposed to be a part of RDBMS....shit ...a real piece of shit.If i was supposed to do that what the hell in this world made them to think that they are teaching us RDBMS.I agree that i m ignorant about most of things in RDBMS but what i know is certainly right and not just a fake concept .Yesterday i felt the vaccum in the NCST's reputation as a good teaching institute.
At this moment i m the PL of our group and frankly speaking i m not at all certain about the nature of our projects fate , if the curator himself tries to become predator then what destiny can a survivor have .
Yesterday we didnt even cover all our ER review.After all the stuff that our group underwent yesterday i am now feeling in no man's land ...not knowing where to go ,but still my nature is forcing me to stay on what i feel right and not to be deviated towards anything else no matter if anyone else feels it wrong ....and till i feel it right...

Mere Mortals....

hi guys its quite an absurd feeling to get on blogging after such a long time .This time around i feel like repairing the misconceptions that i had about my "Dreamland".Previously i mentioned that the most of the students over here are freaks...." hell.. now it feels that i how insane was i to think like that " ;Its almost nearing the end of course and not many students are left over here and this time around i see only very few freaks remaining...can anyone guess whom i m referring to??...by reading my previous blogs you might say that i might be indicating towards few remaining students.Well then for everyone's surprise its not the students but my very own idols the so called "TEACHERS " over here.
These freaking mortals call themselves teachers and hell they dont know how to behave so .The prime freak of all is my most prominent idol over here.Initially i thought that he had the every characteristic that a teacher should belong but to my dissapointment he heads the list of freaks.....He can be the prime candidate for the Fr34K!n9 personality of NCST .Once proclaimed as undoubtedly the best person to have as an mentor ,now symbolises a perfect favourite for 4$$ l!c^erz .
Few days back we had our demos being conducted.We were evaluated by the most appropriate person(NCSTian ) in NCST .I didnt fair that good in that demo but was satisfied by my performance .In the same week my "Fr34K!n9 idol " conducted demo for other group.And to noone's surprise his favourite "4$$ l!c^er" has scraped through not bcoz of his ability but due to his "4$$ l!c^!n9" ability.Even if that was not enough this idol of mine claims to me that this 8!t)|^| headed 84$t$r|) can be my future leader.Hell i dont know how #### did he get this divine interpretation in hi s mind.Undoubtedly this idol of mine has got great ability in programming...in every field of CS that i know(and even beyond it ),his image as a great CS personnel or a scientist in my view is still undamaged and can never be broken .Even now as far as knowledge gaining is considered i still would desire to have him as mentor.The only thing that however will always keep on pricking me is his ####### partiality and attitude.
Its almost hell of a slang full of a blog and my blood is still boiling for more slangs towards my idol (i m also one of mere mortal )but then too i m a bit cultured so i better stop here ; Probably if i keep on writing such blogs then the day is not far when i will be writing a dictionary of slangs.Perhaps would be redefining the very meaninng of slangs .I know this blog wont be read by many perhaps by none but this blog is for myself....i wanna break free...break free from the illusions that this idol of mine gave me .