hi guys,
Today its an awesome day for me .Today we had our placement interviews conducted at CDAC and most of us appeared for it.I was never planning to join wipro so no regrets for me .But the most precious moment was when my best friend prashant was selected for the job.He was not too much satisfied by the job but still i felt happy as the motto by which he joined CDAC has been fulfilled.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Pride Crucified...
hi guys,
Today this is my second blog of the day and the reason for it is my feelings.Today i was hurt to one of my utmost levels since being in CDAC.Today the closed ones have hurted me.Previously in my previous blogs i metioned about principles .Well then the few guys who tried tp screw my principles contain my closed ones too.
In cDAC i felt before today that no matter anyone admire me or not ,my closest friend will always be on my side.But yesterday i realized that he also thinks otherwise.His thinking is also same as that of others .
In CDAC of late people have started doubting my abilities moreoften.But still i have the passion to go on.I feel i have the instincts that can keep me going on as before.Till yesterday i was feeling that my closest friend also believes that..but couple of hour of discussion and it changed all the equations.What conclusion i have drawn from the whole incident was MY FRIEND ALSO THINKS THE SAME AS OTHERS DO and HE ALSO DOUBTS MY ABILITIES .Initially i thought i was not alone in the battle but now i feel that i have to go alone all the way long.Now its not a battle for my pride but its battle for my existence.
At the end of the day only one moral from the entire thing ............................It always hurts a lot to be hurted by close ones.
Today this is my second blog of the day and the reason for it is my feelings.Today i was hurt to one of my utmost levels since being in CDAC.Today the closed ones have hurted me.Previously in my previous blogs i metioned about principles .Well then the few guys who tried tp screw my principles contain my closed ones too.
In cDAC i felt before today that no matter anyone admire me or not ,my closest friend will always be on my side.But yesterday i realized that he also thinks otherwise.His thinking is also same as that of others .
In CDAC of late people have started doubting my abilities moreoften.But still i have the passion to go on.I feel i have the instincts that can keep me going on as before.Till yesterday i was feeling that my closest friend also believes that..but couple of hour of discussion and it changed all the equations.What conclusion i have drawn from the whole incident was MY FRIEND ALSO THINKS THE SAME AS OTHERS DO and HE ALSO DOUBTS MY ABILITIES .Initially i thought i was not alone in the battle but now i feel that i have to go alone all the way long.Now its not a battle for my pride but its battle for my existence.
At the end of the day only one moral from the entire thing ............................It always hurts a lot to be hurted by close ones.
PRINCIPLES ..............????
hi guys,
This time around i have with me an isuue that has been mangling in my mind since last night .Last night i was a bit bewildered about whether a man should have principles or not.
I am a man with my own principles which by no means bisobey the moral duties of a person.I beleive that my principles can bring me success no matter what if i follow them ....even if they dont i am sure that they will never lead to my downfall. Also when i am on the route to failure, at the end of the day i feel satisfied that still one more day my principles have sustained without being altered and still they add meaning to my life.In the current scenario when people have principles for the stake of saying my principles always make me feel to be seperated from these pathetic mortals.I feel a principle is the only thing that makes the life worth living for a person,without which i guess there wont be any difference between a life of a dog and that of a human.
All these was fine and still i feel i m still right.But yesterday someone tried to prove how wrong was i to have those principles.It didnt cause me much harm to think about that, but i felt like my principles are being tampered with .I was almost made to think about whether i was wrong or not.Infact still i have not fully recovered from the stress of the whole massacre .
Meanwhile my principle dont allow me to see anything wrong and to bear it quitely but today i saw few (MGPT) papers of our institute being stealed by my batchmates claiming to have high moral values.Well what am i supposed to do in this scenario ....i say what i did...nothing simply nothing..................why bcoz i was made to think that what those noble souls are doing is an act of utmost greatness and i was a #*(k!*8 4$$h0|3 who thinks otherwise.What was i supposed to do ..what i did....all the questions have just screwed my mind.
Nthing more to say .....i guess my thinking doesnt even permit me to write anything more here...perhaps should remain silent.
This time around i have with me an isuue that has been mangling in my mind since last night .Last night i was a bit bewildered about whether a man should have principles or not.
I am a man with my own principles which by no means bisobey the moral duties of a person.I beleive that my principles can bring me success no matter what if i follow them ....even if they dont i am sure that they will never lead to my downfall. Also when i am on the route to failure, at the end of the day i feel satisfied that still one more day my principles have sustained without being altered and still they add meaning to my life.In the current scenario when people have principles for the stake of saying my principles always make me feel to be seperated from these pathetic mortals.I feel a principle is the only thing that makes the life worth living for a person,without which i guess there wont be any difference between a life of a dog and that of a human.
All these was fine and still i feel i m still right.But yesterday someone tried to prove how wrong was i to have those principles.It didnt cause me much harm to think about that, but i felt like my principles are being tampered with .I was almost made to think about whether i was wrong or not.Infact still i have not fully recovered from the stress of the whole massacre .
Meanwhile my principle dont allow me to see anything wrong and to bear it quitely but today i saw few (MGPT) papers of our institute being stealed by my batchmates claiming to have high moral values.Well what am i supposed to do in this scenario ....i say what i did...nothing simply nothing..................why bcoz i was made to think that what those noble souls are doing is an act of utmost greatness and i was a #*(k!*8 4$$h0|3 who thinks otherwise.What was i supposed to do ..what i did....all the questions have just screwed my mind.
Nthing more to say .....i guess my thinking doesnt even permit me to write anything more here...perhaps should remain silent.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Review Worth forgetting....
Hi guys,
Once more i m back with my feelings.As usual this feelings correspond to irritation more than anything else.Yesterday we had our ER review,one word that i would think after the overall review was ..SHIT.... .Prior to this course i never had DBMS as my subject so i had no prior knowledge of DBMS .Naturally i had to read a lot before going into the review .I did as much i could read and went for the review.I was expecting some sort of discrepancy in my knowledge before going to the review but when i faced the review i just felt to be torn apart .I was told to do what was not supposed to be a part of RDBMS....shit ...a real piece of shit.If i was supposed to do that what the hell in this world made them to think that they are teaching us RDBMS.I agree that i m ignorant about most of things in RDBMS but what i know is certainly right and not just a fake concept .Yesterday i felt the vaccum in the NCST's reputation as a good teaching institute.
At this moment i m the PL of our group and frankly speaking i m not at all certain about the nature of our projects fate , if the curator himself tries to become predator then what destiny can a survivor have .
Yesterday we didnt even cover all our ER review.After all the stuff that our group underwent yesterday i am now feeling in no man's land ...not knowing where to go ,but still my nature is forcing me to stay on what i feel right and not to be deviated towards anything else no matter if anyone else feels it wrong ....and till i feel it right...
Once more i m back with my feelings.As usual this feelings correspond to irritation more than anything else.Yesterday we had our ER review,one word that i would think after the overall review was ..SHIT.... .Prior to this course i never had DBMS as my subject so i had no prior knowledge of DBMS .Naturally i had to read a lot before going into the review .I did as much i could read and went for the review.I was expecting some sort of discrepancy in my knowledge before going to the review but when i faced the review i just felt to be torn apart .I was told to do what was not supposed to be a part of RDBMS....shit ...a real piece of shit.If i was supposed to do that what the hell in this world made them to think that they are teaching us RDBMS.I agree that i m ignorant about most of things in RDBMS but what i know is certainly right and not just a fake concept .Yesterday i felt the vaccum in the NCST's reputation as a good teaching institute.
At this moment i m the PL of our group and frankly speaking i m not at all certain about the nature of our projects fate , if the curator himself tries to become predator then what destiny can a survivor have .
Yesterday we didnt even cover all our ER review.After all the stuff that our group underwent yesterday i am now feeling in no man's land ...not knowing where to go ,but still my nature is forcing me to stay on what i feel right and not to be deviated towards anything else no matter if anyone else feels it wrong ....and till i feel it right...
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